This blog has helped me grow financially. It has introduced me to ideas and insights, writers and friends I couldn’t imagine a little more than a year ago. This blog has also helped me start to live more purposefully. What I never imagined, though, was that my struggles with blogging–more than my successes–would really help me grow. As I try to sort through the merriest and busiest time of year, I’m finally learning to be a little bit kinder to myself.
I haven’t been feeling well probably because of the frantic end of the semester and ‘tis the season for students to share their germs. Any other day or week or month, I would have forced myself to keep going. I would have told myself that I was just making excuses and that nothing worth having ever comes easy. Basically, I would have made things worse.
But this weekend, I realized something. Blogging isn’t my job. Blogging isn’t my world. And as much as I love blogging, I have to give myself credit for all the other things I’ve been working on lately.
It’s true that She Picks Up Pennies is one of my passions, but teaching is always my top priority. As a result, sometimes blogging has to take a backseat to lesson planning, grading, and connecting with families. I also made two commitments last year that will help me grow professionally (and land a raise!). In addition to starting a second Master’s program, I also started the National Board for Professional Teaching Standards Certification process. It consumed much of the last school year, and I finally got my results this weekend after waiting for seven months. I passed! With a rumored pass rating of around 40%, I was genuinely shocked to have cleared the first two hurdles on my first attempts. As much as it pained me to push blogging to the side at times, those scores were an important reminder of why I do that.
I’ve written before at length about side hustling. Sometimes, I feel like I don’t hustle hard enough. Other times, I feel like I’m burning the candle at both ends and through the middle. In addition to tutoring, I also proctor standardized tests once every few months. I also collaborated with a colleague to create another professional development course for teachers in our district. That’s on top of the work I do for Tip Yourself each week and the two sponsored posts I finished in October. Even though my first instinct is to push myself to work harder, when I spell it out like this, it seems like a little break might be just what I need.
Then there’s my family. Normally, I get all of my writing done the weekend before. Ideally, I crank out at least one post on Friday and a second post at some point that weekend. Between catching up with my parents before they go travel next month, honoring my nana on the anniversary of her passing, and saying yes to all sorts of other meals with family and friends, my weekends seem to pass by in a blur. As much as I wish I had more time to chronicle these memories and blog about each moment, I’ll have to settle for making time for the experiences and hope the writing falls into place at some other time.
I know I’ll get back to blogging later this week. I’ll pour through my Vanguard accounts. I’ll start looking at our progress as we gear up for another year. I’ll probably even put together another post for the awkward series.
But in the meantime, I’m going to give myself a pass. In fact, I’ll do more than that. Instead of focusing on everything I have yet to do, I’ll take some time to give myself credit for everything I’ve already done.